Into a new epoch, am I?

A month ago, upon Ernest invitation, I take part in Malaysian Pubic Policy Competition (MPPC), jointly organised by faculty of Economics and Political Science, UCSI and International Council of Malaysian Scholars (ICMS). I am the team leader, as opposed to my belief that Ernest, who asked me to join this competition should be the leader in fact. Anyways, as long as the team, which is comprised of Ernest, Nathanael, Matthew and me can go along well, work hard together, then I am glad enough. Indeed, maneuvering a team of 3 brightest scholars is not that easy, but somehow, so far I am leading them well. Ever since the addition of swimming team training, Will Group facilitator program, UCAS application (which is the toughest and most time consuming part) and MPPC, my daily timetable is fully packed. It is lucky that I have 9 days of Raya break, during which I can fully utilise it to complete what I have missed and postponed during normal school day. I even worked more than 24 hours non-stop twice on MPPC side competition, and feel really exhausted. I wept in class, due to excessive exhaustion and sleepiness, and what woke me up was the IELTS result. I was like being boosted for the rest of the day by my improved IELTS result. At least, I know that hard work do pay off. It is proven that when there is a will, there is a way. Time is precious. When you have leisure time to spend, spend it wisely. When you are too free, too bored, you are actually burning your future down into ashes. What do I mean here? Time is also a gift by God for you to build up yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, of course in a good way.
Every second counts, for busy people. Some busy for no purpose, simply beacuse they don't have a vision to follow on. But if have found your passion, your mission, your vision, go ahead, at the speed you like. (normally close to full speed). It should be reminded that your objective have to be positive, so that it won't harm/ hurt others.
Writing blog post is a very good pastime( I treat it as a pastime). I have the chance to do reflections of my deeds, be they good or evil. From there, I enhance the good deeds I do, and avoid the bad deeds I did. From the failure of my resit of statistics 2, and the past 2 examples of how I excelled once I was given a chance to show my best again, it become so obvious that 'will' is what most of us lack(maybe I am the only one who lacks the will). With the will, for sure we can succeed in what we aim to do. Time to grow up, boy. Do away with all the bad qualities. purify yourself. For your own good. I am not going to publish it. Primarily bacause I am not good at coining words like how Lynton does. (haha, am I right?). I don't wish to wreak havoc, or make you change your view on me, straightaway. I am undergoing a transition. when you read this post, whether we know each other or not, just commend on it, for my own good. Dare to point out my mistakes, correct it, we will discuss. I believe, I have things to learn from you, and you may find something to learn here, lest a reflection.
Today, I am both sad and happy. I am sad, as I have wasted a big part of my life. I am happy, because I have gradually found my path. I feel that I am enlightened. Is it too late or is it too early? Why shall it be now? Can you explain the theory of coincidences which bring me and you here? All the happenings around?
p/s, I will make up my mind and tell you more about myself. :D be updated soon!!

Finally

It has been a long time since the last time I updated my life. I must say I am here to conclude my 2nd semester of A level course. Today is 27th of June, 2011, Monday.
I woke up at 11.25 in the morning. My junior Lim Chia Kee had wanted to send something for me to eat, yeah she said she gave me a bread in her message in the early morning and I told her to make a call to me as I would be sleeping till late morning the night before.I am a bit taken aback on her action, being close to me.heheh, hope that my guess is a wrong one. I haven't unwrap the pack yet.
I had my lunch with a few of my senior from medical school, today they had their first day of the one week long orientation. There is only one private student from Chung Hwa, Sibu. He is a former form 6 student. This is a bit funny actually.

I was supposed to write this post yesterday, as I have promised Lynton, but incidentally, I had a meet up with my brother and his family, so for half of the day I was with my family. Then when I reached home at 8.39 pm yesterday night, I had to hurry to my friend's unit at block B to celebrate her birthday.

25th and 24th june were my black days. I couldn't believe I actually screwed up the 4 sections of IELTS. just hope that pitiful me can get a band 7.I would love that. Sigh.

I went back to KL from SP on 22th of June, Wednesday. The bus journey took me a staggering 6.5 hours, what a sad case. The bus stopped in Butterworth and Bkt Mertajam to fetch passengers. I reached KL at 3 sth, at pudu. By the way, Pudu is really new and quite magnificent u know, after refurbishment was done on it.

Well, I have wasted much time relaxing. Time to get serious.

To Err Is Human...

Forgive me,
everyone out there.
Everyone who knows about that,
the relationship that I smashed.

Forgive me,
Its not what I want either,
Its not what I can manipulate,
to the situation of total harmony.

If,
I do not deserve forgiveness,
just condemn.
Reprimand as fierce as you like,
if that can relieve your temper.

I beg for a chance to wash away my sin.
Not to correct the past,
but to avoid the future.

After all, I am just a man,
not saint.
Please,
forgive me.

You Reap What You Sow

If my memory still serves me right, the motion for the school level English parliamentary debate audition was 'you reap what you sow'. Just now, I came across this maxim from a post in Facebook. It was about a hardworking student who achieved good grades and was not appreciated, what a sad case. I shall be proud of myself upon others' appreciation on me and steps are not to slow down but acceleration is required. I am now in my cousin's house, celebrating his birthday. The party is great, with around 50 people turning up. Most of those are his friends. There is a very ironical phenomenon. My cousin is in form 4, from Monkey Boy School(LOL). But during the barbecue fiesta, I saw 5 pretty young hot chicks. I didn't notice and think further about that. I settled down with my delicious yummy gummy barbecue stuffs in the compound. My uncle follow suit. Later on, he said my cousin is pro, study in a boy school still got so many girls chasing after him. Girls call him through phone, doing lots of love signs, etc, etc. See, even his dad acknowledges his capability of attracting girls, I can't agree more then. He shall be a singer or a fashion model, quit study and explore his future in key personality field. I am having a can of Heineken. I had tried Carlsberg Gold before, and I just feel that these beers lack the oomph the practical wines give you. Practically, when we drink wines, we are drinking 80% ethanal, and 20% ethanol, not fully alcohol. Anyway, I can't really guarantee to myself that I don't touch alcohols, in part I think I am addicted to it already.Damn it!!

A Token of Appreciation and Some Reflection

It's been a long while since I wrote my last post.

To start with, I received my first semester A level results on the 10th of March. Amidst happiness intermingling with a tad of disappointment( I got a B for Stastistics 2), I began my first ever post mortem on my result grade.

There was once my best friend forever, Lynton, told me this: cleverness can't bring you far, only hardwork can bring you to a higher plateau. This brutal truth certainly hit on my face hardly, knocked me down repeatedly for the past 6 years. I don't mean I am clever here, and sadly I am only half clever. If I were that clever, the result wouldn't end up in such a pathetic way.Not to mention others, cases happened around me incessantly that challenge will beat you down if you are not fully prepared. I learnt a lesson. Never treat things easily, especially exams. Laziness only contributes to the lag in the flow of globalisation and modernisation(I don't mean to use big word, but I think it is suitable to use those mouthful of lengthy words which I don't like).

Thank you bro, you helped to fill the gap between me and my family, never left me(I don't know if u have ever thought of, LOL) when I sinned, never declined whenever I need support, and the best pastime of me. Gladly, lessons you taught me are still imprinted on my mind. U r such a beloved and respected BFF.

It is time to calm my mind down and clear the dirt that blinded me for so long. Learn from sharp observation and think twice before I act. It is not the pitfalls that you start to feel God is not fair to you, but it is the same thing that He wants to test on your ability to climb back to the summit. By the time you succeed , rejoice under the bath of sunlight!!!

p/s: A lot of lesson to learn from my housemates too, especially Nicholas, Kelvin and Ernest. Indeed, philosophy is a good, great principle!!

First day in IELTS...deep impression.

To quote Logaraj, 'no matter how early we get up, we will be late to school for sure'. This is something we shall ponder-the cause for sure.FYI, from Angkasa Condominium elevated carpark to north wing of UCSI University is a 20 minutes walk. We may be arriving in time if everything goes on smoothly during the course of journey. 'Latecomers will have to sing song! Lady Gaga!', our Miss Diane from Manchester, UK joked. So, disregard of you have to sing a song for a hundred odd students and 3 IELTS teachers, please depart early to get hot seats in the class,not to say in the first row, as that would be uncomfortable. You know, the mini amp+loudspeaker can't pronounce British English accent well.

Now in her mids, Miss Diane is really a jocular person. She is an MUFC fans, has a good sense of humour, and is the 'play while you play, work while you work' type of person. She gained my respect from the role she plays as an english teacher. A good one!!